First thing that I really want to say is that I have read through my past posts. I find it kinda embarrassing and want to delete them. But I think that I shouldn't, cause they are my past, all I can do is to just laugh it off and move on.
I been really very isolated to the world, but I keep having this thoughts behind my head that I had to do well again, I cannot be so slack and so anti-social. I have learnt that if I want to my current life to change, I have to change myself, because it is my actions that causing the things around me.
I learn to be more encouraging, this is one of the good point I have in the past, however, I stopped it because there was once my gf prefer to be comforting than encouraging. You know when you love somebody so much, you would do what they likes. Yeah that's what I did.
I not saying my gf is the cause of this, it is me who is the cause. I chose to be like this. I chose to walk this way.
I have learnt that I cannot be like a girl, I cannot stay my life open only to gf. Open to one person only is not good, it only made yourself more anti-social and more reliant on your gf.
My dear gf, if you are reading this, once again I am not making you are wrong. Listen to me first, I am sharing my experience and learning during this journey. It is not good to close all the doors and open to one person only, I know you don't want me to do this and this is not your intention, but because I am too extreme already, when I know I cannot talk to girls, I just close all the doors. I don't do initiative in chatting, even with guys. I also don't want you to be like me, that's why I need to give you freedom to talking to people.
As always I need to be holistic, I need to step back and look the picture. I need to give constructive feedbacks. Positive comments. Understanding words. Be mature.
I was thinking, the man who have been silence for so many days, have the most words to say.
Yes it is going to be a new semester. The last semester in my rp life. I am going to move on to next stage soon le, National Service. Yeah man, I gonna miss rp life. So much freedom, you can do whatever you like, not really that stress.
Always do with a good reason in your heart.
I realized that if you focus on the virtue that you want, you have it.
This parents is more of respecting to people. That's why they are very polite people.
I have to know what I want to be. I need to write them down, so I know clearly what I really want.
Yeah, this sound stupid, I already what age le still figuring out myself. But it is always never too late.
-Polite
-Trust (Giving people for them to trust you)
-Be nice (Believe in everybody have a kind heart, it is just a matter of time they show you. Be nice to everybody, they will naturally show you their kind heart)
-Be sincere (Mean your words)
-Be concern (Knowing your gf life, what she is facing in school, is she doing good. If she is facing problems in school, encourage her in her next day, telling her that what she can do. If she is doing good in school, be proud of it. This applies to my mum too, ask her how is her business. My brother too.)